Question
Ten years of practice; I’ve been in a new city for two years and no longer do zazen. I
miss it and don’t miss it. Why?
Anonymous
Answer from Master Kosen
I am the one asking you: Why? It is a very deep question.
Why do people who have never done zazen not miss it at all, and why do those who no longer practice not miss it?
Even though it is the greatest possible intimacy with oneself, and when we return to this posture after a long time without practicing, we finally ask ourselves, “How could we go so long without this consciousness and intimacy?” Only then do we realize how much we missed it.
Only zazen, only Buddha, can miss zazen.
Kosen