Question
Ever since I was very little, I have had moments of “fixity.” It starts with concentration or a kind of daydreaming. Then I feel “frozen,” unable to do anything. One day my mother found me like that and asked, “What are you thinking about?” Her question surprised me. A fairly profound reflection immediately came out, and I was astonished, because I was sure this kind of thought, arriving in a flash, did not come from me… I do a kind of automatic writing through which I manage to get answers to my questions. But my personal filter blocks it, and I get angry because, once again, these thoughts do not come from me (at least that is how it feels). I now live with coincidences (for myself, or as a conduit for others). The “fixity” sets in on its own to “pull my ear, nose, or foot” to the right or left, or what is called intuition, without telling me why until I get there. This annoys me, because I don’t feel in control of my life. Either I take control and might end up trapped by a truck, or I listen to what I feel and have the impression of being a robot with an empty mind… The golden path, as they say… So how can I accept not controlling everything? (It annoys me just to ask.) Or how can I accept “emptiness” (an uncomfortable position because it is involuntary)? What is generally called letting go? Thank you! Kisses!
Kat
Answer from Master Kosen
We are creators, and we are also created. Some points of our mind are close, while others are very far from our consciousness. We love because we are loved; we inhale because we have exhaled. Our life is multidimensional.
Kosen