Question
Ever since my mother died in 2001, I have been going through a deep inner crisis about who I am. All of this keeps me in a state of great anguish and confusion about everything. I am often afraid that I am doing things wrong and will end up making my life something dark. I cannot feel sure of anything I do, and of course this gives me a bad relationship with things, whether with other people or in my individual activities. Sometimes I feel I am at a dead end.
I go to the dojo, to zazen, and each time I feel it is my path and does me a lot of good. But when I return to daily life, I struggle to keep up my energy and get out of this tunnel of suffering, this vicious cycle that comes from within me.
Master, thank you for being there.
constanzapoj
Answer from Master Kosen
It is normal.
Good luck to you; the suffering will disappear.
Kosen