Question
i feel as thouhg ive lost something, but, i dont know what it is, my life is lacking something and again i dont know what this is, ive felt like this since my parents died as if ive got one more cjance left but i dont know why or what it is, help me
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Answer from Master Kosen
My parents also died long time ago, I guess this is really part of our humanity to feel this way from time to time. Right inside this kind of loneliness we have to find compassion for ourselves. This will open ourselves to universal compassion for all the human beings who have to face their own lives.
What can really satisfy us ? We know it when we are satisfied, but if we search for it we do not find it. And the more we search for it the less we are approaching it, so it is better to let go this search and observe what we are living in the moment. Everything is in our own mind, if we know that then we can start changing our mind and look for what is making us happy right now. There is no use in our mind not to be satisfied, surely zazen practice is helping a lot. When we practice zazen, we are not anymore asking for anything else, we are just living right here in that instant. Finally with a continuous practice we get use not to look outside for something but to look inside ourselves, like someone who comes back in his own house and feel ok.
Kosen