Question
Master,
I have been trying to learn to meditate for some time. Since I grasped the essence of
meditation, it has become my hobby, my passion, and my way of life.
I try to see everything from the most meditative perspective possible. I try to maintain
constant attention and clarity in every moment.
I came out of a depression thanks to meditation… Everything has changed. I no longer get caught up in
little things, or get angry or anxious over anything and everything… My tastes in music,
movies, and hobbies, and my social and political awareness have changed. I have much more peace,
and I would even venture to say that at certain moments when I have meditated,
I have experienced ecstasy. Although I always try to go further, observe my ego,
and not tie or attach myself to anything (as far as humanly possible), I also do not want
to inhibit myself. I seek everything out for myself, trying to do everything as
mindfully as possible, and always go further, but without a goal, little by little.
I have read many authors of different faiths, though all closely
connected to meditation. Zen is the tradition that attracts me most,
although I do not entirely agree with it, and I have doubts about whether
I would fit in at a dojo. I live in Barcelona and have several dojos to choose from, all quite
close. I have been planning to go for a while, but never have.
I saw your documentary, but the ceremonies and the aesthetics themselves do not appeal to me. I don’t know whether
I am making myself clear without sounding as though I am judging or prejudging things in my mind.
If you step outside your role as a Zen master… Should I go to the dojo even though I do not
entirely agree with Zen’s aesthetics and ceremonies? If I am only
interested in the philosophy and the Way?
Luigi
Answer from Master Kosen
Ceremony means making your intention dance.
Kosen