Question
I always think about one day losing my fear of serious Zen practice, about being able to come to a short retreat with you. Some days I even think about being ordained as a monk… But I always find various excuses: I am going back to Mexico, I will not have time to come, fear of the countryside, of solitude, of there being no food during breaks—horrors!!—of not being able to eat sausages or chocolates, of becoming destabilized, of losing my bearings…
Thank you for many other enlightening answers on this website.
Karlus, Barcelona.
Karlus
Answer from Master Kosen
I am exactly like you, but I like this feeling of fear because I know it is part of the process.
Kosen