Question

Hello Master Kosen, A serious doubt has arisen over my practice. This generates great anxiety on me, the anxiety of giving up, of making mistakes, maybe. I do not feel able to overcome this doubt ... how can I do it?

Answer from Master Kosen

Doubt is a great way to practice, you have to doubt everything including doubt. This is Jo Chou's famous MU.

If you practice Mushotoku: "Mu" = no

And, Shotoku = obtaining, profit, growth, achieving a goal.        

MU is even stronger than "no"; MU is not the negation itself.

We don't care that Zen is useless, it doesn't matter that the monks are pitiful in their patched old gowns with shitty colors.

You doubt your practice? Cool! You're afraid to give up!

But there is nothing to give up, you can leave without regrets being the master of yourself. After 50 years of zazen practice I still do zazen in hell, just as I started off. Nothing has changed, no progress, and when I come out of the dojo, I thank to myself the true happiness of having had, even today, the permission of my master Deshimaru to sit in his real dojo and to practise right in front of myself.

Kosen


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