Wasn't this to disavow your fundamental vow, to doubt of your first ordination?
Answer from Master Kosen
It was very important for him and its Sangha to have young people like us, what a chance!
We said quite bitterly: yes-yes-yes
And some time later, I asked him on a purely personal basis to reorder myself, as now it was me who asked for the ordination of monk humbly, it was indeed a certification on both sides of our engagement of Master and disciple.
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