Since a few months ago, I keep on practicing zazen almost in spite of me, but I do not feel any longer the stamina and the eagerness that fear of impermancence used to give me. On the other hand, I've quite understood that one should not expect anything from practising, except maybe the satisfaction of knowing that one doesn't have anything to lose. I should normally be happy about that, but this is not so. Do we get insidiously accustomed to happiness up to trivializing it and thus, do we fall back into unsatisfaction? Or am I just weary and disappointed from having looked so eagerly for something and believed so much in zazen to eventually understand that nothing is to be found?
Answer from Master Kosen
This is a very worldly, oh, so Parisian, vision of zazen!
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