Answer from Master Keisen
The more you look for an outcome, the more this outcome will run away from you. This is not a question of wanting an outcome or not. Dogen says: "If you built a pound, do not expect that the moon will reflect itself in it. Build your pound and naturally, when it is done, the moon will reflect itself on it."
Continue practicing and naturally the outcome that you were searching will disapear by itself. Realisation of the awakening will appear obvious to you, like the moon in the pound, providing you do not make waves in it all the time. Searching something for oneself is like agitating the water of the pound, nothing can then be seen. Spiritual life has of course nothing really to do with looking for catching something for oneself. Practicing is just the activity of all Buddhas, in zazen practice but also in everyday life.
Just practice and do good.
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