QUESTION (resumed) :
I wonder if liberation is only a nice word in zen books
QUESTION (original) :
I sit nearly everyday counting breath; I offered my room for zazen for now over 4 years , to attract other people to
sit together with me, but people come and go noone stays, I feel alone and apart from a group of other people on the zen path,
i failed to establish a local sangha; I only sit there facing the wall and nothing happens beside pain in my knees and this question in my mind : why ?? I suffer more then ever more then befor doing zazen
is there any liberation? I wonder if liberation is only a nice word in zen books
gassho
Un mon sho do
ANSWER :
If everybody goes away from your house, it's because
you suffer too much and they don't want to look like you if
they go on with the practice. Stop counting your breathing,
it's foolish, and make sure that your posture is correct.
KOSEN!